WOW! This weekend was fantastical, but too short. Friday night we went to the Home Show to see if we could get any ideas for our new home, and guess what? I did get some ideas. YAY!
We had plans Saturday to Max and Relax all day, but those plans never pan out and we ended up going on a date! My husband took me to a really nice local theater and we watched “She’s Outta My League” which was filmed in Pittsburgh. That movie was totally hilarious! I laughed and laughed and laughed as well as my husband – who never shows emotion during movies. It really showcased Pittsburgh. The airport, the South Side, Penn Avenue, North Shore, PNC Park, Mellon Arena, the Warhol Museum… it really made Pittsburgh look good. Definitely go see that movie. It was totally worth the hour and 45 minutes we sat in the theater.
Sunday was a clean and bake day. I did a ton of laundry as well as baked 100 million oatmeal cookies and a birthday cake for Traci. I worked out and then played an obscene amount of wii with Teri. We had a birthday party for Traci and relaxed the rest of the evening.
I know everyone is curious about the MEAT auction… Well, I didn’t purchase any MEAT. They had entire cows for sale. I could not possibly do anything with that much MEAT, so I stuck with some Frozen Mac and Cheesus, brown sugar, frozen veggies and giant sized oatmeal (hence the million oatmeal cookies I made). We had a really good time Thursday night at the club and they have excellent chicken wings as well as fabulous chicken salads. YUM, I can not wait to go back for dinner!
Monday, March 15, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
3 Fun Things!
Dear Friends… Today is an awesome day! The following awesomeness is going to happen:
1. My bank is purchasing us a delicious meal!
2. I get to go to the dentist!
3. TONIGHT! One Night Only! MEAT AUCTION!!!
So let me elaborate. The bank that I work at has been named the “Most Awesome Business in Armstrong County! We won an award and there was a nice article in the paper about the bank. You all know how much I lurve my job and how fun it is. I am glad the customers feel the same way to make us the most Awesome. So in Honor of Us employees, the bank is giving us a celebration lunch! So Much Fun!
I know, I know! We get food all the time while we are at work… but this is special food and I am pretty excited about it. I always look forward to the days that we are fed by the bank. That in itself was reason enough to wake up today!
I am probably one of the only people who actually LOVE to go to the dentist. I like to have my teeth cleaned and look all shiny and sparkly. I love to have a beautiful smile! Not to toot my own horn, but I think I have a pretty nice smile and I like to keep it that way.
Ok, ok, I know you are all wondering about a Meat Auction! I think it is the best thing EVER! This is simply what it is… My husband is a member of the Country Club and they have a kitchen in it. Well, the people who were running the kitchen were kind of dumb and were not making any money. So…. The members got together and fired the staff and will rehire someone new in the next couple months, but until then, they have all this MEAT and other food in the freezer. In order for it not to go to waste, they are selling it to the members in an auction style auction.
Of course, when I heard about this MEAT Auction, I HAD to be in on it, so we are going to make the trip tonight to the club and participate in this MEAT Auction. I am totally pumped about this little affair! I just want to buy a big old slab of MEAT. I know, I am a 17 year old immature little girl… I can not help it. I just find MEAT to be such a funny word.
In other news, TRACI READ A BOOK!!! It was amazing. I gave her Dear John and told her she had to read it. A couple days later I sent her a text and she did not answer, so I called her. She answered my question and then she said “I have a confession to make, I am reading Dear John” and I laughed my rear off. She read that book in 1 evening and 1 day. I was totally impressed. Kudos, Traci. Now I want to read The Last Song, so I told her to go to Walmarts and purchase it for $5.97. I am not allowed to purchase more books for a while now, but she is and I can borrow them. I hope she goes and gets it to read. I want to see that movie. I do lurve Miley Cyrus.
w00t! there it is!
I can NOT wait to have a good day!
1. My bank is purchasing us a delicious meal!
2. I get to go to the dentist!
3. TONIGHT! One Night Only! MEAT AUCTION!!!
So let me elaborate. The bank that I work at has been named the “Most Awesome Business in Armstrong County! We won an award and there was a nice article in the paper about the bank. You all know how much I lurve my job and how fun it is. I am glad the customers feel the same way to make us the most Awesome. So in Honor of Us employees, the bank is giving us a celebration lunch! So Much Fun!
I know, I know! We get food all the time while we are at work… but this is special food and I am pretty excited about it. I always look forward to the days that we are fed by the bank. That in itself was reason enough to wake up today!
I am probably one of the only people who actually LOVE to go to the dentist. I like to have my teeth cleaned and look all shiny and sparkly. I love to have a beautiful smile! Not to toot my own horn, but I think I have a pretty nice smile and I like to keep it that way.
Ok, ok, I know you are all wondering about a Meat Auction! I think it is the best thing EVER! This is simply what it is… My husband is a member of the Country Club and they have a kitchen in it. Well, the people who were running the kitchen were kind of dumb and were not making any money. So…. The members got together and fired the staff and will rehire someone new in the next couple months, but until then, they have all this MEAT and other food in the freezer. In order for it not to go to waste, they are selling it to the members in an auction style auction.
Of course, when I heard about this MEAT Auction, I HAD to be in on it, so we are going to make the trip tonight to the club and participate in this MEAT Auction. I am totally pumped about this little affair! I just want to buy a big old slab of MEAT. I know, I am a 17 year old immature little girl… I can not help it. I just find MEAT to be such a funny word.
In other news, TRACI READ A BOOK!!! It was amazing. I gave her Dear John and told her she had to read it. A couple days later I sent her a text and she did not answer, so I called her. She answered my question and then she said “I have a confession to make, I am reading Dear John” and I laughed my rear off. She read that book in 1 evening and 1 day. I was totally impressed. Kudos, Traci. Now I want to read The Last Song, so I told her to go to Walmarts and purchase it for $5.97. I am not allowed to purchase more books for a while now, but she is and I can borrow them. I hope she goes and gets it to read. I want to see that movie. I do lurve Miley Cyrus.
w00t! there it is!
I can NOT wait to have a good day!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Trying To Climb Out Of The Darkness
OK… I hope I am climbing out of my dark dreary place and back into my sunshine filled life. The past couple days have been very emotional for me and I have not been able to handle them. I have cried pretty much all day for the past 2 days and I will not, I repeat WILL NOT cry today! Um… I already broke that, but going forward, I will not cry today.
I am dealing with a lot of emotions and some days are better than others for me. As you know, my daughter passed away on October 3, 2008 and that is 17 months ago! I would have thought as time went on, things would get easier, but they really have not. I have just refocused my energies.
For so long I was totally focused on coming out of Cardiomyopathy that I didn’t really think about a lot of other stuff. I thought about Kendall and how I missed her, but it was not a constant thought on my brain. The constant thought was “How am I going to make myself better?” and “How am I going to get a stronger heart?” and “What do I have to do to be allowed to have another child?” You know, things like that. I was so focused… and after I recovered, I was so focused on getting off my medicines… I was getting off my medicines so that I could have another baby. All I have wanted in my life is to be a mother. It is so difficult to have all these plans and have them ripped away from you. So, we tried and so quickly I became pregnant. YAY! Something good to focus on! A new baby that is growing inside me… Until I miscarried.
You know, that was pretty terrible, but I kept it all in because I did not want the pity or sympathy or any other feelings of “I don’t know what to say to them” when I see my friends. So, we didn’t tell a lot of people and just dealt with this horrible setback privately.
Now that I am 1 month out from the miscarriage, I have all this anxiety and stress about next time. I do not want to have another miscarriage when we actually do try to have another baby (which will not be until June) and I just want to relax… But I can not. I obviously can not control my life and need to just chill, but I really need something that I can control. When June does roll around, I need to be STRESS FREE and relaxed… I also need to not obsess on what has happened to me. I am obsessed with it all though.
After much discussion, and looking and researching, my husband and I have decided we are going to build a new home. I am really, really excited about this business and I am looking forward to looking forward to something. I know at the end of the journey… We will have a NEW home. We will have the home that I want we want and will hopefully be building NEW memories in that home.
We have not put our home up for sale yet, but in the next couple months we will be cleaning it out (you know, cleaning out our closets), having a few garage sales and hopefully moving on. In the interim, once our home sells, we will be living in an apartment – which I am surprisingly very excited about! – while our new home is being built.
I will be taking you all along for this ride with me as our life dramatically changes – and I really think that is what we are in need of. CHANGE!
I really miss my old self.
I am dealing with a lot of emotions and some days are better than others for me. As you know, my daughter passed away on October 3, 2008 and that is 17 months ago! I would have thought as time went on, things would get easier, but they really have not. I have just refocused my energies.
For so long I was totally focused on coming out of Cardiomyopathy that I didn’t really think about a lot of other stuff. I thought about Kendall and how I missed her, but it was not a constant thought on my brain. The constant thought was “How am I going to make myself better?” and “How am I going to get a stronger heart?” and “What do I have to do to be allowed to have another child?” You know, things like that. I was so focused… and after I recovered, I was so focused on getting off my medicines… I was getting off my medicines so that I could have another baby. All I have wanted in my life is to be a mother. It is so difficult to have all these plans and have them ripped away from you. So, we tried and so quickly I became pregnant. YAY! Something good to focus on! A new baby that is growing inside me… Until I miscarried.
You know, that was pretty terrible, but I kept it all in because I did not want the pity or sympathy or any other feelings of “I don’t know what to say to them” when I see my friends. So, we didn’t tell a lot of people and just dealt with this horrible setback privately.
Now that I am 1 month out from the miscarriage, I have all this anxiety and stress about next time. I do not want to have another miscarriage when we actually do try to have another baby (which will not be until June) and I just want to relax… But I can not. I obviously can not control my life and need to just chill, but I really need something that I can control. When June does roll around, I need to be STRESS FREE and relaxed… I also need to not obsess on what has happened to me. I am obsessed with it all though.
After much discussion, and looking and researching, my husband and I have decided we are going to build a new home. I am really, really excited about this business and I am looking forward to looking forward to something. I know at the end of the journey… We will have a NEW home. We will have the home that I want we want and will hopefully be building NEW memories in that home.
We have not put our home up for sale yet, but in the next couple months we will be cleaning it out (you know, cleaning out our closets), having a few garage sales and hopefully moving on. In the interim, once our home sells, we will be living in an apartment – which I am surprisingly very excited about! – while our new home is being built.
I will be taking you all along for this ride with me as our life dramatically changes – and I really think that is what we are in need of. CHANGE!
I really miss my old self.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
I Can Not Control Everything
I am having a very, very, VERY hard time lately. Ever since my miscarriage that partially happened in January and then finished up in February, I have been feeling extra sad. I know that most of the time, when you talk to me, I do not seem that bad, but really and truly, I am not doing well. I cry almost every single day. I just do not understand how this is my life. I hate having my life on hold and wondering what bad is going to happen next.
Yesterday I went to Dr. Heart. He is my favorite doctor in the world, and I am sure I am his favorite patient. When I was pregnant, I was in his office once or twice a week… then I went about once a month after I had my daughter… now that I am recovered I go every 3 months. There is always something new when I go there. So anywho… yesterday I went and my weight was 4 lbs down! HOLLA! And my blood pressure was great; he said that my EKG looked EXCELLENT!!! And was better than it was pre-pacemaker, so that is fabulous!!! The only thing wrong was that I have some nodules on my Thyroid… both sides. He told me that I should not be alarmed, because women who have recently been pregnant have thyroid problems. They get nodules or enlarged thyroids and it isn’t bad… but he isn’t sure that is what is happening.
I also have to have my Cholesterol, Triglycerides, Blood Sugar and all that fun stuff tested to make sure I am a healthy little lady. I think I am, but I guess I’ll find out next week.
I did not get to do my Shredder last night, but I did go for a walk at lunch time and a walk after work. I was just too busy last night. We went to my parents’ house and told them about our plan to sell our home. Needless to say, they were upset and do not want us to move away. I understand and I don’t totally want to change my life, but the house where I am living is not where I want to be. I can not live there anymore and I need a change.
We are going to be moving about 30 minutes away from where we live now and that will add an extra 15 minutes onto my commute each way, but it will be worth it because we are going to be building a BRAND NEW BEAUTIFUL HOME. I have so many ideas and thoughts of how I want my home to look and what I want in it… I can not wait! We are going to be listing our home in late April, early May and then we will see how long it takes to sell. Once it sells, we will live in an apartment until our home is built. It will not be until probably Christmas 2011 that we will be moved in (which is ok). Building a home is a long process and we I am excited to start something that will distract me from my life.
I also hope to get pregnant… AGAIN this summer. June, July, August, or September would be good months to get pregnant. I am on hold right not due to the miscarriage last month until May, so the earliest we will have a new baby will be next March… a year from now! So hopefully that will be a good distraction as well. I am not sure if when I have another child if I will be happy then, but it is worth a try!
I am really having a difficult time and no one really knows how I feel. I see ALL of my friend have another baby after miscarriage or loss and I just have another miscarriage. Another loss for me. I am not sure why this is my life or why these things happen. I can not plan into the future, but hopefully I can plan on this new house. That is something that I can CONTROL! Unlike my health and job. My husband and I work hard and we have been patient to get what we want. Hopefully everything works out.
Yesterday I went to Dr. Heart. He is my favorite doctor in the world, and I am sure I am his favorite patient. When I was pregnant, I was in his office once or twice a week… then I went about once a month after I had my daughter… now that I am recovered I go every 3 months. There is always something new when I go there. So anywho… yesterday I went and my weight was 4 lbs down! HOLLA! And my blood pressure was great; he said that my EKG looked EXCELLENT!!! And was better than it was pre-pacemaker, so that is fabulous!!! The only thing wrong was that I have some nodules on my Thyroid… both sides. He told me that I should not be alarmed, because women who have recently been pregnant have thyroid problems. They get nodules or enlarged thyroids and it isn’t bad… but he isn’t sure that is what is happening.
I also have to have my Cholesterol, Triglycerides, Blood Sugar and all that fun stuff tested to make sure I am a healthy little lady. I think I am, but I guess I’ll find out next week.
I did not get to do my Shredder last night, but I did go for a walk at lunch time and a walk after work. I was just too busy last night. We went to my parents’ house and told them about our plan to sell our home. Needless to say, they were upset and do not want us to move away. I understand and I don’t totally want to change my life, but the house where I am living is not where I want to be. I can not live there anymore and I need a change.
We are going to be moving about 30 minutes away from where we live now and that will add an extra 15 minutes onto my commute each way, but it will be worth it because we are going to be building a BRAND NEW BEAUTIFUL HOME. I have so many ideas and thoughts of how I want my home to look and what I want in it… I can not wait! We are going to be listing our home in late April, early May and then we will see how long it takes to sell. Once it sells, we will live in an apartment until our home is built. It will not be until probably Christmas 2011 that we will be moved in (which is ok). Building a home is a long process and we I am excited to start something that will distract me from my life.
I also hope to get pregnant… AGAIN this summer. June, July, August, or September would be good months to get pregnant. I am on hold right not due to the miscarriage last month until May, so the earliest we will have a new baby will be next March… a year from now! So hopefully that will be a good distraction as well. I am not sure if when I have another child if I will be happy then, but it is worth a try!
I am really having a difficult time and no one really knows how I feel. I see ALL of my friend have another baby after miscarriage or loss and I just have another miscarriage. Another loss for me. I am not sure why this is my life or why these things happen. I can not plan into the future, but hopefully I can plan on this new house. That is something that I can CONTROL! Unlike my health and job. My husband and I work hard and we have been patient to get what we want. Hopefully everything works out.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Sunshine Has Been Fantastico
Did you all have a fine weekend? I know I sure did. My husband and I got a TON of work done around the house. We started in the cereal cabinet and made it around our entire kitchen cleaning out the cabinets. After I rearranged, combined and threw out old, our cupboards are very bare. Its ok though. We don’t need a whole lot of extra stuff. I loved opening the one cabinet and it didn’t have anything in it. I laughed for a while!
We visited with some friends, my in-laws, my parents and even had time to exercise! It was a great weekend. The best part was that the sun was shining the entire time!!!
Tomorrow morning is my official “weigh-in” and I think I am doing really well. I have done my Shredder for 6 days in a row now! Today will make a week of shredder. I even got up early on Friday morning in order to do it before work. I am going to have to do that more often, because it really helps in the evening plans. I know that Saturday and Sunday I did not want to exercise. I just wanted to chillax after we worked in our house. I forced myself to go to the basement and bust a move. It was totally worth it too because it didn’t take too long, I really sweat it out and I felt so much better about myself.
I did enough laundry to choke a cow over the weekend and guess what! I even put it all away!!! I never do that. I usually let it sit in the basket for a week and then put it away. I don’t know what got into me over the weekend except that the sun was shining and I even had my bedroom window open!
This should be a quick week. I have doctors appointments, trainings, special lunch dates… you know all kinds of awesome work stuff to fill the week and then BOOM! It will be the weekend again and time for max and relaxin.
The awesome St. Pattys Day Parade will be Saturday, so that should be fun! Last year my sisters and I went while my husband golfed. I wonder if he will be able to golf this Saturday. It seems to me there is still a foot of snow packed in our yard. I hope he can!
We visited with some friends, my in-laws, my parents and even had time to exercise! It was a great weekend. The best part was that the sun was shining the entire time!!!
Tomorrow morning is my official “weigh-in” and I think I am doing really well. I have done my Shredder for 6 days in a row now! Today will make a week of shredder. I even got up early on Friday morning in order to do it before work. I am going to have to do that more often, because it really helps in the evening plans. I know that Saturday and Sunday I did not want to exercise. I just wanted to chillax after we worked in our house. I forced myself to go to the basement and bust a move. It was totally worth it too because it didn’t take too long, I really sweat it out and I felt so much better about myself.
I did enough laundry to choke a cow over the weekend and guess what! I even put it all away!!! I never do that. I usually let it sit in the basket for a week and then put it away. I don’t know what got into me over the weekend except that the sun was shining and I even had my bedroom window open!
This should be a quick week. I have doctors appointments, trainings, special lunch dates… you know all kinds of awesome work stuff to fill the week and then BOOM! It will be the weekend again and time for max and relaxin.
The awesome St. Pattys Day Parade will be Saturday, so that should be fun! Last year my sisters and I went while my husband golfed. I wonder if he will be able to golf this Saturday. It seems to me there is still a foot of snow packed in our yard. I hope he can!
Friday, March 5, 2010
TGIF
Wow! Is it already Friday?!? This week flew by and I never got a chance to catch my breath it seems.
Last night on The Office, Jim and Pam had a baby. I had said earlier in the day that if it was half as good as when they got married, I could die happy. Well, it lived up to the funniness and now, I can die happy.
My favorite parts were when the Lactation Consultant came in to see Pam… and it was a man. I don’t know if you all remember but, I too had a male Lactation Consultant. His name was BOB and I was quick to name him Bob the Boobman. See, I am actually a child trapped in a 27 year olds body and I am not quite mature yet. When my man Bob put that breast pump on himself, even my husband (mister maturity) was laughing. So, that really was amusing that it was on tv. I just want everyone to know, Bob did look at my boobs, but never touched them. Hahahah!!!
I also loved when they picked up the wrong baby and Pam breast fed it. It was hilarity!!!
Last night I shredded and treaded. It was a good time! I was sufficiently sweaty and I felt so good after I worked out. I wanted to wake up this morning to do day 4 of shredder because we are busy tonight. Guess what! I can not wake up with my alarm like EVER, but today… I was up at 5:30 am with my alarm and went to the basement and shredded! Awesome Job Toni! You’re the bomb! (I have to keep telling myself that!)
I even had time to make myself a scrambled egg and milk and OJ Simpson for breakfast. Im gonna have to look into this getting up early thing more often because… it is quite nice to not be rushed.
Last night on The Office, Jim and Pam had a baby. I had said earlier in the day that if it was half as good as when they got married, I could die happy. Well, it lived up to the funniness and now, I can die happy.
My favorite parts were when the Lactation Consultant came in to see Pam… and it was a man. I don’t know if you all remember but, I too had a male Lactation Consultant. His name was BOB and I was quick to name him Bob the Boobman. See, I am actually a child trapped in a 27 year olds body and I am not quite mature yet. When my man Bob put that breast pump on himself, even my husband (mister maturity) was laughing. So, that really was amusing that it was on tv. I just want everyone to know, Bob did look at my boobs, but never touched them. Hahahah!!!
I also loved when they picked up the wrong baby and Pam breast fed it. It was hilarity!!!
Last night I shredded and treaded. It was a good time! I was sufficiently sweaty and I felt so good after I worked out. I wanted to wake up this morning to do day 4 of shredder because we are busy tonight. Guess what! I can not wake up with my alarm like EVER, but today… I was up at 5:30 am with my alarm and went to the basement and shredded! Awesome Job Toni! You’re the bomb! (I have to keep telling myself that!)
I even had time to make myself a scrambled egg and milk and OJ Simpson for breakfast. Im gonna have to look into this getting up early thing more often because… it is quite nice to not be rushed.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Exercising Maniac!
So, today is Thursday… It is day 4 of my diet! I am so far doing famously! My husband took a look at my list of foods that I ate and I asked where I could improve. He said he couldn’t really see anything except for that I don’t write down when I eat little Hershey Nuggets and things like that… Um… yes I do, look closer dear husband. I have just been really watching what I eat this week and avoiding the little chocolate monster. I think I may be able to do this!
Last night as soon as I got home from work, I did day 2 of Shredder! It was so very hard and was killing me, but I pulled through. We then had some chicken breast and rice for dinner. It was deliciousness on a plate. I lurve to eat lemon pepper chicken that is burnt! It was so good. I squirt some extra lemon juice in the pan to cook it. Last night my husband was in charge of the chicken cooking. I made the rice. I simply put it in the pan, walked away until it boiled and then once it was boiled, I came back did a little stir and simmered until the chicken was done. I gave him the option of what he wanted to do… he chose chicken – LUCKY ME!
After dinner we chatted about some stuff and I decided I was not done exercising, so I went back to the basement and treaded it for 35 minutes. I was soaked with sweat… Does anyone else sweat uncontrollably? I am not sure what’s up with that, but it seems I may be a man. I decided to stretch for a while and man oh man, I had drips on my pants of sweat coming off me! It was insanity… Sorry that is kind of gross.
Yesterday a woman I work with told me her daughter is expecting TWINS!!! That is really cool. I think it would be pretty stressful to have twins. She is having boys… and she has a little boy who is almost 2 at home… that is going to be a fun house! Maybe someday I will get pregnant again and maybe I will have twins… OMG, I would die! But, needless to say, I am very happy for my coworker and her family.
Last night as soon as I got home from work, I did day 2 of Shredder! It was so very hard and was killing me, but I pulled through. We then had some chicken breast and rice for dinner. It was deliciousness on a plate. I lurve to eat lemon pepper chicken that is burnt! It was so good. I squirt some extra lemon juice in the pan to cook it. Last night my husband was in charge of the chicken cooking. I made the rice. I simply put it in the pan, walked away until it boiled and then once it was boiled, I came back did a little stir and simmered until the chicken was done. I gave him the option of what he wanted to do… he chose chicken – LUCKY ME!
After dinner we chatted about some stuff and I decided I was not done exercising, so I went back to the basement and treaded it for 35 minutes. I was soaked with sweat… Does anyone else sweat uncontrollably? I am not sure what’s up with that, but it seems I may be a man. I decided to stretch for a while and man oh man, I had drips on my pants of sweat coming off me! It was insanity… Sorry that is kind of gross.
Yesterday a woman I work with told me her daughter is expecting TWINS!!! That is really cool. I think it would be pretty stressful to have twins. She is having boys… and she has a little boy who is almost 2 at home… that is going to be a fun house! Maybe someday I will get pregnant again and maybe I will have twins… OMG, I would die! But, needless to say, I am very happy for my coworker and her family.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Decisions, Decisions
My life is strange. One minute I am content and the next minute my mind is racing onto what I can do to make my life better. Recently, I have been doing a lot, A LOT of thinking about the future. It is no secret that I am kind of tired of my current joblet. I mean, I have been doing it for 7 years!!! Eventually, you want to improve yourself or make your life a little different.
Please don’t get me wrong. I am not saying I hate my job. That is so far away from what I actually feel. I lurve my job and I will continue to do it as long as I need to, but the thing is, I am getting bored. I need some excitement and I don’t mean getting locked in the bathroom again ;) .
I have already set in motion some opportunities at my current job and I am talking to the right people to make it happen. It is mostly a waiting game right now. I rarely talk about my future professional plans on here because I do not want people to hold them against me… But, I am struggling with a decision right now.
7 years ago I graduated from IUP with a BS (bull shit? or is it Bachelors of Science?) in Finance and a Minor in Accounting. I have always said that the finance degree helped me with my life; however, the accounting degree is what got me my job to begin with. When I started my professional life, I was very lucky that I had those accounting credits and was eligible to get the job I got so many years ago. Today, I have moved up and to another company, but I am essentially in the same job.
I am seriously thinking about going back to IUPizzle for a few more classes. I am unsure of what to do though. I am going to talk to the one professor that I lurved and I will see what she has to say about all this. I only need 5 (or 4) classes to get a double BS in Finance and Accounting. The thing is, I am not sure whether I would be going back to be a “Graduate Student” because I am already degreed or am I a “Super Undergraduate”? Also, should I go get the Accounting, or should I go to get my MBA? I know an MBA is a big commitment and I wanted to go to PITT to get that if I ever did do it. I think what I am going to do is take 1 class in September and see what happens and how that goes.
I have a theory about college. It is a bunch of BS… See when you are 17 and 18 years old, you have no idea what you want to do with your life! At 27… I am totally different than I was at 17. I have lived a strange life and it has very much changed my outlook on things. If I were in college now, it would be so different. I would totally pay more attention and I would “GET IT”! When I was there, I was just focused on graduating and getting on with my life. Now I am actually interested in what the Professors have to say! With that all being said… I am very glad I went to college right out of high school, but it would be very different now as to what I chose as my major and my career.
So… does anyone know anything about going back to school after you have been graduated for 7 years? I need to look a little more into this.
Last night I 30 Day Shredded and my body is killing me today! YIKES! That means I did it right! J I think I’ll weigh myself on Mondays and report to you if I gained or lost anything. Also inches lost on my belly (which is the only place I measured… hahaha). Hopefully I keep this up.
Did anyone catch 16 and Pregnant last night. It is an MTV show that I am addicted to? Well, the girl was 15 years old and she got kicked out of high school (9th grade I believe) and was being home schooled. Her boyfriend was not around (like 2 hours away), much older, and did not have a job. I like to watch these shows… not sure why… but they really upset me at the same time. This girl I think got a big scare when her baby was born enough to make her really take care of the little baby. The baby had possibly inhaled some poo while in-utero and that can be very dangerous. They life flighted the baby to CHOP and in 11 days that little girl was allowed to go home with her mother. The dad didn’t want anything to do with the baby until the health scare either… and I think that is what made these children grow up and actually try to be good parents. That is sad… but at least they know how precious this little baby is now.
I don’t know how these kids can get pregnant so easily, have cute healthy little babies and can not provide for them… But my husband and I could give a baby the world and we have been stripped of this opportunity so far in our life. Kinda upsets me.
Please don’t get me wrong. I am not saying I hate my job. That is so far away from what I actually feel. I lurve my job and I will continue to do it as long as I need to, but the thing is, I am getting bored. I need some excitement and I don’t mean getting locked in the bathroom again ;) .
I have already set in motion some opportunities at my current job and I am talking to the right people to make it happen. It is mostly a waiting game right now. I rarely talk about my future professional plans on here because I do not want people to hold them against me… But, I am struggling with a decision right now.
7 years ago I graduated from IUP with a BS (bull shit? or is it Bachelors of Science?) in Finance and a Minor in Accounting. I have always said that the finance degree helped me with my life; however, the accounting degree is what got me my job to begin with. When I started my professional life, I was very lucky that I had those accounting credits and was eligible to get the job I got so many years ago. Today, I have moved up and to another company, but I am essentially in the same job.
I am seriously thinking about going back to IUPizzle for a few more classes. I am unsure of what to do though. I am going to talk to the one professor that I lurved and I will see what she has to say about all this. I only need 5 (or 4) classes to get a double BS in Finance and Accounting. The thing is, I am not sure whether I would be going back to be a “Graduate Student” because I am already degreed or am I a “Super Undergraduate”? Also, should I go get the Accounting, or should I go to get my MBA? I know an MBA is a big commitment and I wanted to go to PITT to get that if I ever did do it. I think what I am going to do is take 1 class in September and see what happens and how that goes.
I have a theory about college. It is a bunch of BS… See when you are 17 and 18 years old, you have no idea what you want to do with your life! At 27… I am totally different than I was at 17. I have lived a strange life and it has very much changed my outlook on things. If I were in college now, it would be so different. I would totally pay more attention and I would “GET IT”! When I was there, I was just focused on graduating and getting on with my life. Now I am actually interested in what the Professors have to say! With that all being said… I am very glad I went to college right out of high school, but it would be very different now as to what I chose as my major and my career.
So… does anyone know anything about going back to school after you have been graduated for 7 years? I need to look a little more into this.
Last night I 30 Day Shredded and my body is killing me today! YIKES! That means I did it right! J I think I’ll weigh myself on Mondays and report to you if I gained or lost anything. Also inches lost on my belly (which is the only place I measured… hahaha). Hopefully I keep this up.
Did anyone catch 16 and Pregnant last night. It is an MTV show that I am addicted to? Well, the girl was 15 years old and she got kicked out of high school (9th grade I believe) and was being home schooled. Her boyfriend was not around (like 2 hours away), much older, and did not have a job. I like to watch these shows… not sure why… but they really upset me at the same time. This girl I think got a big scare when her baby was born enough to make her really take care of the little baby. The baby had possibly inhaled some poo while in-utero and that can be very dangerous. They life flighted the baby to CHOP and in 11 days that little girl was allowed to go home with her mother. The dad didn’t want anything to do with the baby until the health scare either… and I think that is what made these children grow up and actually try to be good parents. That is sad… but at least they know how precious this little baby is now.
I don’t know how these kids can get pregnant so easily, have cute healthy little babies and can not provide for them… But my husband and I could give a baby the world and we have been stripped of this opportunity so far in our life. Kinda upsets me.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
I AM GONNA DO IT!!!
If I have said this once, I have said this 100 times… I AM GOING TO DROP SEVERAL POUNDS IN THE NEXT SEVERAL MONTHS!!!
How am I going to accomplish this? Well, let me tell you (and hopefully this time it works!) I have started to write down EVERYTHING that I eat. I did it while I was in Cleveland last week, but got away from it for the weekend. I started up again yesterday and then I showed my husband my list. He said “WOAH!!! You eat a lot!” But then after further investigation, he noticed every time I had water, I took up a line on the sheet of paper. I am going to really look at what I eat and try to make good decisions. If my man is holding me accountable, then maybe this will work!
Also, I am going to really, really try to work out most nights. Last night I did 2.25 miles on the treader and then stretched for a while as well as some other floor exercises. I spent about 45 minutes workin it last night and tonight I think I will do my Shredder level 1.
Lastly I am going to make an effort to eat breakfast EVERY day! I have a difficult time eating before 10am, so I am really going to try to eat something every single morning before I come to work. Today I ate a small bowl of oatmeal. Yesterday was the official start and I will let you know how I am doing sporadically.
Here is the thing. I need to drop a duce (20 lbs) before I gain a duce when I am pregnant again. I know there is about 3 months before we are allowed to try to get pregnant again, so I have some time to drop the weight. I also have Traci’s wedding to drop this weight for. Traci is super skinny and Teri is super skinny, so I will be between them and need to be closer to their weight. Hahaha. I know that is not a good reason, but it is some motivation.
Last night I read Sweet Little Lies by my girl Lauren Conrad. It was a good teeny bopper book that I thoroughly enjoyed reading. It was very much like the Hills on MTV and I was happy that I could spend some mindless time reading this little gem. Laurens first book, LA Candy, was a treat as well and I can not wait for the next one to come out. As we all know, I am obsessed with LC. Hahaha. I even have the Lauren Conrad braid today in honor of the book. Sometimes it is nice to just read something mindless rather than thinking about my real life or even reading books like Dear John (which I bawled my eyes out the entire time).
I also heard that Chad OchoCinco will be on the new season of Dancing With the Stars… I will probably watch this season. I have not watched for several seasons because I didn’t like anyone… But this is an allstar cast! Kate (from John & Kate + 8), Evan Lysacek (Olympic gold Medalist), Pamela Anderson, Buzz Aldrin (80-year-old astronaut), Shannen Doherty, Aidan Turner (from some soap opera), Nicole Scherzinger (lead pussycat doll), Jake (on the wings of love bachelor), Erin Andrews and Niecy Nash… I think I want Chad to win… he is a trip! There is only one problem… MY FAVORITE GOSSIP GIRL is on the same time. Thank GOD for DVR!
How am I going to accomplish this? Well, let me tell you (and hopefully this time it works!) I have started to write down EVERYTHING that I eat. I did it while I was in Cleveland last week, but got away from it for the weekend. I started up again yesterday and then I showed my husband my list. He said “WOAH!!! You eat a lot!” But then after further investigation, he noticed every time I had water, I took up a line on the sheet of paper. I am going to really look at what I eat and try to make good decisions. If my man is holding me accountable, then maybe this will work!
Also, I am going to really, really try to work out most nights. Last night I did 2.25 miles on the treader and then stretched for a while as well as some other floor exercises. I spent about 45 minutes workin it last night and tonight I think I will do my Shredder level 1.
Lastly I am going to make an effort to eat breakfast EVERY day! I have a difficult time eating before 10am, so I am really going to try to eat something every single morning before I come to work. Today I ate a small bowl of oatmeal. Yesterday was the official start and I will let you know how I am doing sporadically.
Here is the thing. I need to drop a duce (20 lbs) before I gain a duce when I am pregnant again. I know there is about 3 months before we are allowed to try to get pregnant again, so I have some time to drop the weight. I also have Traci’s wedding to drop this weight for. Traci is super skinny and Teri is super skinny, so I will be between them and need to be closer to their weight. Hahaha. I know that is not a good reason, but it is some motivation.
Last night I read Sweet Little Lies by my girl Lauren Conrad. It was a good teeny bopper book that I thoroughly enjoyed reading. It was very much like the Hills on MTV and I was happy that I could spend some mindless time reading this little gem. Laurens first book, LA Candy, was a treat as well and I can not wait for the next one to come out. As we all know, I am obsessed with LC. Hahaha. I even have the Lauren Conrad braid today in honor of the book. Sometimes it is nice to just read something mindless rather than thinking about my real life or even reading books like Dear John (which I bawled my eyes out the entire time).
I also heard that Chad OchoCinco will be on the new season of Dancing With the Stars… I will probably watch this season. I have not watched for several seasons because I didn’t like anyone… But this is an allstar cast! Kate (from John & Kate + 8), Evan Lysacek (Olympic gold Medalist), Pamela Anderson, Buzz Aldrin (80-year-old astronaut), Shannen Doherty, Aidan Turner (from some soap opera), Nicole Scherzinger (lead pussycat doll), Jake (on the wings of love bachelor), Erin Andrews and Niecy Nash… I think I want Chad to win… he is a trip! There is only one problem… MY FAVORITE GOSSIP GIRL is on the same time. Thank GOD for DVR!
Monday, March 1, 2010
A Baby Shower Experiance
This weekend I went to a baby shower for a very good friend of mine. She is expecting a little girl in April after the loss of her first little boy back when Kendall was born. I absolutely knew I wanted to go to the shower. Not only to show Elizabeth how happy I am for her, but to also prove to myself that I am strong enough to move on with my life.
Needless to say it was a very emotional couple hours. I got there and immediately an old teacher I had said “I saw you had a baby a while ago… you look great… what did you have” and I told her about Kendall and how she passed away. It was ok, I get it a lot. I was prepared for that and I am always prepared for that. People don’t know what happened and I get that. I would probably ask myself how old she was and stuff too if I met myself on the street.
Crying crisis adverted. Then, another good friend from high school was at the shower. She lost not one, but two late term babies and finally had a beautiful little girl in December. This little girl is so beautiful, and all the photos I see on Facebook show me she is just PERFECT! Well, Amanda walked in and I was so happy to see she was there. I figured she would be there, but I was not sure. She sat down and I was so excited to see the little angel that I immediately wanted to touch her and play with her. Mandy asked me how I was… and then the tears started to flow.
Holy crap… I hate being emotional and I hate crying in public. I tried so hard to hold back the tears, but I have been having an emotional couple months. EVERYONE knows we are trying to get pregnant again, so of course everyone asks how that is going. Not everyone knows I had a miscarriage last month and we are on hold for a few more months… On hold for a few more months… It seems my life is always “on hold”.
Mandy let me hold Mia and we played until it was time for her to eat. She was the cutest little bean I have ever seen (other than Kendall of course) and it was so fun to hold another little baby girl. A special little baby girl. I miracle in fact. I could feel all this special baby energy flowing from Mia to me and it was every emotional.
When Elizabeth finally got there (and we have been going through some pretty bad stuff together but have not seen each other for quite some time) we had to hug. When we hugged I was so happy for her to be having a healthy little baby girl that again the tears were a flowin. It was such an emotional time and I can not describe it other than the fact that the happiness I had for her was true and genuine and I can imagine how scared she is… and I have a longing to be in the same situation.
I made it through the shower and I didn’t have too much of a hard time, except when I thought about this little fact. When I was pregnant in 2007-2008, I had 33 friends (ladies I personally know and talk to on a somewhat regular basis) who were also pregnant. Of those 33 ladies, 11 of them do not have their babies today. 11 of the babies either were miscarried early on, were stillborn or for Elizabeth and Myself, they were born very sick and passed away at a very early age. Now, those 11 ladies are all mothers of beautiful little babies. I am the only one who is not even pregnant to enjoy this journey. It is kind of hard to think about.
I know that I would have been a mother by now too if I was healthy… and I was definitely not healthy. Now that my heart is all strong and beating at a “normal” rhythm, I know I will be a mother soon. But how long am I supposed to wait to be happy?
Not that I am not happy… I am very happy, I love life and I am so blessed… but why do bad things happen to supposed “good” people? I guess God has “special” people he picks out for these bad things to happen to. They are people who can handle it I guess. I am not sure how much more I can handle tough. I guess as much as God gives me.
In other news, this weekend we got the movie Couples Retreat from my sister… OMG it was terrible. It was long, boring and only funny in a couple spots. I am unsure why I wasted so much time watching it. My husband quit watching it and went to the other room and watched golf. I could have been reading.
Needless to say it was a very emotional couple hours. I got there and immediately an old teacher I had said “I saw you had a baby a while ago… you look great… what did you have” and I told her about Kendall and how she passed away. It was ok, I get it a lot. I was prepared for that and I am always prepared for that. People don’t know what happened and I get that. I would probably ask myself how old she was and stuff too if I met myself on the street.
Crying crisis adverted. Then, another good friend from high school was at the shower. She lost not one, but two late term babies and finally had a beautiful little girl in December. This little girl is so beautiful, and all the photos I see on Facebook show me she is just PERFECT! Well, Amanda walked in and I was so happy to see she was there. I figured she would be there, but I was not sure. She sat down and I was so excited to see the little angel that I immediately wanted to touch her and play with her. Mandy asked me how I was… and then the tears started to flow.
Holy crap… I hate being emotional and I hate crying in public. I tried so hard to hold back the tears, but I have been having an emotional couple months. EVERYONE knows we are trying to get pregnant again, so of course everyone asks how that is going. Not everyone knows I had a miscarriage last month and we are on hold for a few more months… On hold for a few more months… It seems my life is always “on hold”.
Mandy let me hold Mia and we played until it was time for her to eat. She was the cutest little bean I have ever seen (other than Kendall of course) and it was so fun to hold another little baby girl. A special little baby girl. I miracle in fact. I could feel all this special baby energy flowing from Mia to me and it was every emotional.
When Elizabeth finally got there (and we have been going through some pretty bad stuff together but have not seen each other for quite some time) we had to hug. When we hugged I was so happy for her to be having a healthy little baby girl that again the tears were a flowin. It was such an emotional time and I can not describe it other than the fact that the happiness I had for her was true and genuine and I can imagine how scared she is… and I have a longing to be in the same situation.
I made it through the shower and I didn’t have too much of a hard time, except when I thought about this little fact. When I was pregnant in 2007-2008, I had 33 friends (ladies I personally know and talk to on a somewhat regular basis) who were also pregnant. Of those 33 ladies, 11 of them do not have their babies today. 11 of the babies either were miscarried early on, were stillborn or for Elizabeth and Myself, they were born very sick and passed away at a very early age. Now, those 11 ladies are all mothers of beautiful little babies. I am the only one who is not even pregnant to enjoy this journey. It is kind of hard to think about.
I know that I would have been a mother by now too if I was healthy… and I was definitely not healthy. Now that my heart is all strong and beating at a “normal” rhythm, I know I will be a mother soon. But how long am I supposed to wait to be happy?
Not that I am not happy… I am very happy, I love life and I am so blessed… but why do bad things happen to supposed “good” people? I guess God has “special” people he picks out for these bad things to happen to. They are people who can handle it I guess. I am not sure how much more I can handle tough. I guess as much as God gives me.
In other news, this weekend we got the movie Couples Retreat from my sister… OMG it was terrible. It was long, boring and only funny in a couple spots. I am unsure why I wasted so much time watching it. My husband quit watching it and went to the other room and watched golf. I could have been reading.
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